okey, I feeling fresh and feeling cool, and my anxiety finally is rubbing off, so be glad becuase I finally returning around my people!!
bombshellsparkle93 asked
Why is everything u do so perfect?
omgosh dude
About bad parents and perception of love
One of the worse things about having grow with abusive parents to an age in which you can finally recognize they are indeed abusive, is that your perception of care and love is gonna be screw up to some level.
In many cases you are still gonna be craving their love and acceptance and everytime they show some gentle or loving gesture towards you, you are gonna still want to run with open arms and take it, waiting for it to last as much as it can.
Even worse, you are gonna think sometimes that maybe you have been misunderstanding them all this time and think they are actually good just because they aren’t as bad as others parents. And there is nothing as shattering as that feeling you get when you make a mistake or something goes wrong and then they get back at being as horrible and bad as they usually are, and even if you knew it will happen sooner or later you are still gonna feel so confused about if they are truely bad horrible people or if you are just an asshole child that keep ruining it because you don’t go perfectly according to their rules
I just want to tell you that keep craving that love is completely natural, is normal wanting to be loved and accepted, but you gotta keep in mind that when your parents aren’t being as terrible as they always are with you, is not becuase they are very deep inside good people having months or years of bad days, they are bad people acting like good civilized ones when they are having a wonderful good day according to their own terms. You aren’t causing their problems, they just use you as their punching bag becuase they are the actual problem.
Them being bad is not your fault, one day things are gonna be different, are gonna be better, and you will be loved and cared for by the correct people, people that really care for you and your well being as a person and not as a possession in their home.
You deserve that love and happiness and you will get it one day in a real way.
someone blocked a prompt I made on a kinkmeme becuase my request wasn’t really kinky and more of a shippy comedy style thing, and I just here on the corner wondering what happen
I can’t help feeling almost personally ofended by how bad most of SU’s songs are traslate into spanish, is just a small number of them taht are good, and even worse, it’s dub is so bad and messy, from the few ones that are good, there is lots of part that end up sounding awful!!
here it is!!! my Smiling God and Dark Planet’s lovechild, this doesn’t make justice to what I dreamed but is close! still no name but eventually i will think of something!
for a easy basic description, I sort of see it in personality as a bit combination of that junji ito’s remina planet and No face from Spirit Away (when inside the bath house tho)
This fella can exchange it’s arms for it’s eyes whenever it want in, probably is left handed too
today’s casual afternoon nap featured my smiling god and dark planet’s kid, it was one the most beautiful thing I have ever had seen appearing in my dreams in whcih i remember all the details of it, I just need to draw it right now
people if I eventually dissapear suddenly (kind of goes for the ones that sees me on skype on more daily basis tho I guess) is becuase I have no internet, because like a fool, I had forgotten my mother no longer can threath me with not paying college, so back at the threaths of taking away the internet, lets hope it doesn’t happen tho!
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