I been to basically all places on my town and I still can’t get a frigging job!!! everything is “we call you later” or “I gotta ask my superiors to see about it“ and nothing ever come out of it, what is wrong with me????? is it how I look or how I talk? I can’t help it not being very enjoyable to look at or if I have some small verbal problems when talking, I just trying my best and getting nothing from it!
People of earth is the only show I started to follow becuase was small and hilarious and right now is wrecking my godamn heart, how could it happen?!
I think I finally feel like 75% relaxed about having a nsfw blog so, do you guys want the link or we wait until someone find out directly about it and confronts me???
also I just gonna say right now, it just has some naked and humanoids fluffs currently, but I’m aiming at in fact drawing legitimate sex, specially of the silly and formless inhuman kind
Bad news, I half screw my arm while doing night exercises and whenever I lift it, hurts like hell
Good news, it wasn’t drawing arm
is that one moment of the night, the one in which my self insecurity creeps on top of my back and I can’t get it out
Today I woke up and not even 10 mins into the day and had a huge fight with my parents, and sometimes when that happens I can’t help but think about beautiful movies with family teaching like kung fu panda or Kubo and I’m just like, man fuck that crap! Like fuck the awful resolution of those problems fuck the director fuck the writer who thought they knew how abuse family problems works, fuck it with a stick and dig it straight into the fucking dirt ala vlad the impaler so everyone can see how fucking hilariously bad that thing was!!
Welp, had a couple of days to rest my hand after drawing 25 lineless art pieces, didn’t got any messages from the ask games I reblogged for further entertainment, so I guess I will be tomorrow (today?) past patreon requests and start the anthology horror comic, will try posting casual doodles while on it this time tho, I think most people just think I’m partially dead
I can’t draw digitally, my tablet is not working and my screen is still botched OH GOD WHY?!!??!!
urghh tomorrow I will start publishing again, I just been so anxious all of the sudden with stuff liek the computer and personal matters, I feel bad of wandering away that way always that it happens, how i’m suppost to maintance a systme of commissions or the patreon if i can’t have more endurance…!!!
okey, I gonna post something personal in a moment, is gonna be a long post, is gonna talk about my family problems and is gonna be about asking for help, is a big and important thing for me and I feeling so nervious becuase my whole life and parents relationship have always been “asking for help outside your family is humiliation and disgrace and people will try cutting your hands off once they see how pathetic you are”
I just want to entablish that, I will post it and I will still act as myself, trying to post art, working on projects and more; becuase asking for help should not make me feel pathetic or miserable, if you want me to explain furtehr after I post it, you can privately ask me, but I will keep being cheerful and happy becuase that’s who I am and not being that, indeed would be a disgrace for my own person